I know I know I know a really long time ago I did a post about me ranting about how by nature I am a hypocrite and blah blah blah. Yeah I know, and i am doing this because I feel like it and it is not the same thing.
Avian Fang. Brisingr Sverdar. They are my two favorite aliases ever. But that is all they are, aliases.
I am going to rant for a bit hopefully I can remember what the second paragraph was getting at.
Lately and by lately I mean for a pretty long while I have been having conflicting religious beliefs. NO MORE! I am tired of this shit. I am going to explain some things right now:
I believe that this life is the only one chance we get. I believe that living is having a good time on this earth and that surviving is just making sure that you stay on this earth. I am sure I don't need a lot to survive, food, water, shelter. With that I can survive. Living though is a bit more challenging. To live you have to be enjoying your survival. Religion takes place in how I choose to live. If at a time I feel the need for hope or that the family members I loved nearly are happy somewhere sure ill be christian. If shit is hitting the fan and my life seems pretty fucked up and I need something to strengthen me well Satanism might help. (seriously some sections of Satanism are really good for self motivation.) Other times when I am emtionally drained and my brain goes to it neutral and logic and reasoning are the only way I can cope well then being an Atheist is where I stand.
I am not a religious person, I am the kind of guy who will greet you with a hello and think about how you might die horrifically in the next 10 seconds. I love my friends and my girlfriend more than anyone. I would say I am quiet loving, but there are not a lot of people I know who hate the majority of the people on this as much as I do. (this is a whole post by itself, later)
One thing I am noticing though is that I am an ass hole. My logic and reasoning makes the people closest to me, (or at-least close to me) angry. My friend went to Kenya and needed to raise a lot of money to do so. My logic realized there was no use for him to go it is not worth it and there were better ways to help Kenyans. The day before he left I was talking with him and he said " Does it really matter if this is not the best way. I am your friend and I could have used your support." I didn't help him raise any money nor did I donate any because of my reasoning.
I have done this to many of my friends. This will be the only time I ever do this but Sergio I want to apologize. And for everyone else lets fill you all in. Sergio is a friend of mine, a good friend at that. We have known each other for a lot of years. Usually we bug one another, in a nice way... Now Sergio is a better person than me ill admit that but I can't help feel like an ass hole when on many occasions he has gone above and beyond the call of friendship and not once have I returned the favor. Actual I think I cause him more trouble than most people do. So again Sergio I apologize you deserve better.
I think I understand what my second paragraph was supposed to mean. Avian Fang and Brisingr Sverdar are just my aliases. Who I am is neither of them. It is not like I have ever hidden behind my alias but still the point remains.
My name is Quinn probablly mentioned this earlier but im saying it again. I ask that if you have read this far you comment leaving a question you want to know about me. Ill answer to matter what.
Fly on fl... You know what not anymore
Peace Out,
Quinn O
4 comments:
I had some things to say about your religious issues, but then I realized that's not your main point so I'll maybe say something about that some other time. Anyway, I don't know why order to address your post in so I'll just leap in feet first....
Well I don't think you've ever hidden behind your aliases. You're honest about who you are, and no matter what name you give yourself that's just enough--to be open about your thoughts no matter who you say you are. Labels and names don't ever matter.
So basically from the other points in your post I get that you are misunderstood by people because of your rationality and also you misunderstand people because you can't exactly force yourself to see their point of view. (...I don't exactly agree with your point on our friend going to Kenya; I mean, there may be economically better or faster ways to help the people but it's really the active participation in helping others that's really important in a situation like that, you want to go and be a part of something to help someone. It's the difference between donating a dollar to cure cancer or participating in a walkathon/becoming a cancer specialist yourself to help. Actions count. That's what I mean by seeing their point of view, because I know it's really hard to see anything from more than one way--it's the fatal flaw in the collective mind of the human race, that we can only see our own point of view.)
Yeah, you weren't looking for a lecture but I just call it as I see it, and I just wanted you to know that no one should really think less of you, because you're always entitled to your opinion. But also, since you're admitting to yourself that you think this way that your mind works is a problem for you (or it creates problems in how people view you) maybe just try to look at the situation completely objectively the next time your rational thoughts might be causing an issue. Even play the devil's advocate; just switch sides and come up with all the reasons that the other point of view is right and why your initial view was flawed.(or make a pro-con list! Those are fun, easy and useful!) Then you can see how other people might react to your ideas. And maybe you'll manage to change your own mind.
-cat
PS: Becaus you said to ask a question, I think I have one:
what are some of the questions about yourself that you can't answer?
It just floated into my head and stuck tere. I don't even know what I fully mean by it.
Cat I knew I was wrong, it just took me a while to realize this.
The point of that was so that I would get asked personal questions. There is nothing I will not answer.
Ask and you shall receive.
Quinn O
I am sure I don't need a lot to survive, food, water, shelter. With that I can survive. Living though is a bit more challenging. To live you have to be enjoying your survival.
that is so true.
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